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If you know what this means, then you know how I feel about the blackboard crap!

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"Feeling Fine"

And for a moment, jut for a brief moment, the pain went away... and I was happy.

Definitely this week has been not my week, but it’s raining outside. I usually don’t like the idea of water falling from the sky, not in this town for that matter. It makes me feel like I'm in a Tim Burton's film, where everything is dark and creepy... quite depressing really. But today is different, I don’t know, it might be the astounding amount of medication I've been taking lately... but today It doesn't feel that way.

Right now I love everything I see, everything I hear... I love the smell of this fresh coffee (which I’m not ¨allowed¨ to drink), the grey light across the sunken window, my Renton Style PJ's, my imperial chair, warm socks that don’t match, the lighted horse-shaped candle (that I made myself along time ago for a friend who I totaly forgot to give it to her) and of course, soothing music that would suite the ocation: Starting out with a little Blue Foundation, going through some Sigur Ros, Jim Brickman and of course, ending with some good old Nick Drake which is perfect for these not so bright days.

It would not be fair for me to complain about anything at this moment, not even about life, about death, about sickness... about pain. For me pain is just another word... an empty though that leads to nowhere. Yes... this is my life right now, sick but peaceful... hurting but quite... quite ironic isn’t it?

This affliction has taken almost a week of my life... that’s why I don’t want to go to bed right now (like I’m spouse to) ´cause right now, I might as well take back a little of what I’ve lost, at least in my own way, regardless of tomorrow or the next day. I wanted to write about this because these moments don’t usually last long... I’m just about the next three seconds away from that, I’m not afraid of pain, got used to that... but I still can’t figure out why I’m terrified by needles. I got to go now, she’s comino… again!